5.21.08
Hi Fasha,
I was just thinkin about you and thought I'd say hi. How are you doing? I'm doing pretty well...enjoying the start of the summer, relaxing and reading and such. I've been spending alot of time online using this browser application called StumbleUpon. You basically add a toolbar to Firefox that you can save preferences (anything that interests you- art, film, sports, food, politics, etc.) and you "stumble" the internet for things that match your interest. Then you can either give the site a thumbs up or down and it begins to make the stumbled sites more specific. I've happened to come across this movie that I just finished watching. I'll leave the link at the end of the email. I would like you to watch it when you have some time to devote your attention to it without distraction. I am not asking for you to agree with it, just to have an open mind and heart. I would like to know how it makes you feel. What does it make you think? Please share it with whoever you wish.
I feel like alot of the things I have been learning/coming across are slowly starting to make sense, in regard to the world we are living in/current
situations physically/mentally/emotionally/spiritually. You had said to me, "We don't talk about spirituality, we don't talk about spirituality." Well, this is what has been tugging at me for a good amount of time- though now I feel it more than ever. We can all feel the chaos, the electricity in the air. Its all a matter of what we choose to believe. I personally, attempt to seek truth as it shall set you free. Education of the self is so important- yet we neglect to acknowledge how important it is. Most of us are glued to the television. Everyone is distracted. And those that know too much are called crazy. So what do you chose? In the words of my friend and fellow poet Edy, "If ignorance is bliss, then bliss must be dancing on a sinking ship...because if you know what Coca Cola did to Columbia, maybe you'd try to do something about it."
But we don't want to do something about it because we're scared of what we might find. There are secrets ingrained in us so evil, I believe it will bring and end to us all. But are we that weak? Niave perhaps. But hope is all we can do. I believe in the power of love, and the power a people can have to change things. I know I may not be perfect. But I was put here for a reason, and it was not to be kept silent. Any revolutionary, any artist, had first the power to believe in the power of their THOUGHTS- then to manifest them into action. I know these things may be difficult to hear because their associations could conjure some fear inducing image- like ghandi, lennon, malcolm, martin, jfk- anyone questioning the Right- getting killed for their beliefs and erased from history. They are just another myth. Another story to be passed on as if history was not a lessoned to be learned.
And I guess I'm saying all this is because I love you. I could not possess knowledge of the utmost importance without sharing it with people closest to me. Call me crazy, call me what you will, but something tells that I am not alone in these occasional conspiracy theories. Mom always said, "trust no one." I hope she would trust her own daughter if she shed a bit of light on something no one wants to acknowledge. But we must always stick together as a family, because in the end it is all we have. And the beginning to that end may not be too far off.
So if all of this is true, it leave us with a more than grim future. 2012 anticipates the arrival of Planet X, (do some research, see what you find) which
has been predicted by countless religions (the movie will explain this), and the Mayan calendar, causing catastrophic natural disasters. We're already
beginning to see effects of what is to come- the tsunami in Sri Lanka, Katrina, Myanmar, and the quake in China are just previews. We just believe that if something of catastrophic proportions occurred in the future, we would be in good hands. But how could government won't be able to save us all. Ofcourse they are planning for the survival of the elite few. They've already built the concentration camps in Indiana. (google FEMA death camps) equipt with gas incinerators. It's funny because we don't think another Holocaust could happen because we live in America. Nothing like that could happen HERE...but sadly, this isn't the case. And none of us will see it coming. But then again, it could all just be...coincidence. So, these are all things that you can choose to acknowledge, further research, and perpetuate self knowledge.
I understand that these things are scary, and it is a huge step to take to acknowledge things as truth because its difficult to grasp at once that everything we hold true and real is not as it seems. But reality is, infact an illusion. It's all manifestations of our own perceptions. But the more we inform ourselves, the better prepared we can be for the future. History exists for a reason. The pieces of the puzzle do not give the illusion that they fit for a reason. Another thing is not thinking that you are crazy for believing these things, if you do believe in them. Its those in power that want to make you think that you are crazy. Drug you up on perscription pills and distract you with television.
It's funny, I was watching a video (stumbled to me) on this mind control experiment called MK-ULTRA. I immediately had a flashback to you telling me stories about how when you worked the night shift for the city you would get phone calls of "crazy people" telling you that they had wrapped themselves in tinfoil to deflect the microwave radiation beams. Are they all really crazy? Or are the pieces just pretending to fit?
I guess all I am saying is, I can not just sit around and not share my feelings with those I love the most. I know that you and I are like minded, and
hopefully you will be able to see where I am coming from without judgement. I feel like if anyone could understand me, it would be you. You're my dad and I love you, as much as we haven't really talk much anymore. I just feel like there is an urgency now more than ever to find truth. If your instinct pulls you in one direction but logics tells you otherwise, give your gut a second chance. And if this all turns out to be one big hoax, one big joke- then I'll admit that I was wrong. But if I am wrong, then so are all the Ghandis, the Marleys, the Malcolms, the poets, the prophets, the activists, the mothers, the lovers, the philosophers, and finally all us regular run of the mill day dreamers. The ones that can't sit still in class because they're imagining all the worlds they have yet to breathe into existence. I cannot live my life just quietly accepting things as gospel. None of us should. Quesiton everything for we cannot afford not to. It is our duty as a people to spread positivity and hope, not perpetuate fear and hate. The universe is complicated and beautiful, and we must understand before we attempt to control it. We must study the stars before we make Gods of them, right?
As far as furthering your own quest for knowledge, that is all up to you. You can chose to seek everything that is already out there. The internet is a great tool, and for as long as we are able to access it, it is a great mode of communication. I've left a few videos of thing's I've come across in recent days. I'd like to know what you think, and hopefully we can get some sort of dialogue going.
As for me, I'm happy and healthy and the sun is shining. I just downloaded all 7 Eddie Izzard shows and am about to watch a Bill Hicks' Legendary One Night Stand. I'm eating knock-off Cheerios called Honey Nut Scooters (they come in a huge bag for 2 bucks) and am listening to Andrew Bird's first cd (it's called Music of Hair, you should download it on torrentz). I think i'm going on a bike ride later with my friends on the Rail Trail..you can ride it for a good 5-10 miles in each direction. It's really beautiful and scenic...you should come visit during the summer and bring your bike and we can ride to Rosendale.
And if you are worried
please, don't be, I'm just fine.
I'm not going on any quest to save the world.
I'm just trying to save us, one mind at a time.
Love Always,
Alyssa
